Honestly, we returned to the doctor in the spring. We didn't want to wait too long to see if we would be able to pursue treatment that could result in a pregnancy. We hoped to pursue treatment this summer (IUIs to be specific). However, that just didn't work out for various reasons and now is not the time. I would LOVE to feel like I have some kind of say over when Nathaniel has a sibling and when we bring another baby home. But, when dealing with infertility, oftentimes it's out of your control in just about every sense of the word. It's discouraging and frustrating. It's hard to feel like you don't have any control in how you build your family. I mean of course we get A SAY, as in we can decide to pursue treatment or adoption. But, when or whether or not any of these routes work is entirely out of our hands.
One one hand, it's discouraging. We really would have loved to have had our first 2 kids within 2 years of each other (give or take a few months). We naively thought since no one has told us we CAN'T have kids, just that we have such a small chance of it happening that we might have gotten "lucky" when we weren't trying and it would just happen. So, here's some proof for you that "not trying" and "not thinking about it" don't lead to conception. I guarantee you that when we brought the buddy home, another baby was the furthest thing from our minds for quite some time. So, "giving up" didn't work for us despite so many people telling us that's "the key" to getting pregnant. (Sorry for all the quotes here, but they seemed appropriate.)
|Nope. Still nothing.|
We'll see what happens. I try not to write too much here about infertility, because it's a depressing topic and I like to pretend sometimes that we're not infertile. But, we are. Which makes every child we have (we'd like at least 3-4) such a process. Sigh. So, this summer we are going the avoidance and denial route! Yay! And just enjoying our sweet boy. And trying not to get TOO jealous of all those perfectly spaced families at church. ;-)