I like starting over. Wiping the slate clean and starting from scratch. Especially when life gets particularly messy. I think that's one reason I enjoy teaching. Every year I get a "do-over" where I get to start again from the beginning.
So, here's to a New Year! Although I have to say that I don't want to start this one from scratch. For me, 2012 began with heartache yet brought more joy than we ever would have anticipated! So, I don't want to start over with anything except for my attitude. And this year I hope to be more mindful in the present moment and appreciate exactly where we are.
If you know me, you know this is a pretty impossible task. :-) I'm always planning for the future, wondering what the next step is, and this year I'm going to try my best to keep my mind and heart present in the moment. Whew! It will be quite a challenge, but I know this will keep my heart focused on where God wants me each day instead of wondering where He wants to lead me next.
I recently read this prayer from St. Teresa of Avila and wanted to pass it along. It will be my prayer for 2013 no matter what happens in the new year. I hope it encourages you as it has me.
"Let nothing trouble you,
let nothing frighten you.
All things are passing;
God never changes.
Patience obtains all things.
He who possesses God lacks nothing:
God alone suffices."
Also, on a related note, if you are going through infertility and are feeling emotionally overwhelmed, discouraged, frustrated, etc. let me recommend a fantastic book to you. "Conquering Infertility" by Dr. Alice Domar was a HUGE help to me and I would say out of the many books about curing and dealing with infertility it was by far the most helpful as it addresses ways to cope with the many emotions of infertility.